Part Three

I don’t even want to tell you what it’s about
The anger and the upset
The upset in me, the anger at what’s out there

I am looking at it
I want it to go away
but need it to open a long-hidden door
Even this need feels like a victory
over me – what I want – my autonomy
Taken here against my will
One part quietly appreciating the gift, grateful
The other raging and in tears
Left raging and in tears
for a lifetime