Absence

Nothing to say even
No one to write to
What happens to you my heart?
Nothing to quicken your pace

Stillness
Waiting
Trusting the bigger holding

I will wait for you
Holding distance
Holding you inside me:
Precious puzzle
Piece of mystery
Feeling your absence
and my longing

* * *
The gift of this separation
Did I finally grow up?
To meet you as a woman
To meet myself
Each moment is a meeting
A relating to myself
Julie – all of Julie
The myriad possibilities presenting
at each instant

Hello myself
Welcome home
Here I am
Here
Now
Alive