Finding my way

I will find my way with this –
With this strange thing “us”
That does not belong
That does not conform
Will not fit in a box,
behave,
or allow itself to be pinned down

With this loss –
Self-inflicted
Anticipated
Your absence
Your going…
My choice

With this new encounter of old territory –
Meeting the unmet
Comforting the inconsolable
The terror of finally meeting Mother
The grief and the longing
Welcoming it all