Trust

dedicated to Hannah McWilliams

Where is safety in my life?
Where is the safety inside?
Fragile sister,
hearing your story;
I want to build a container big enough
to hold you in,
a nest that you can rest in,
arms for you to lean into,
unfailing support,
beyond the human.

In this attempt
I infantalise you,
I make myself bigger
than God
I show no trust
in life

I want to give up this attempt
and find a trust
in something greater
to lean into myself
to let go and be nourished
and in doing so,
to let the flow through me to you